I didn't know whether this should be in the show forum or this one because its not really a show question...ughhh I don't know.. Anyways.
Bare with me this story is a little emotional... [surrender]
So, Lately I have been confused and sadden with my show hobby. In 2009, it was my last year of 4-H in which I had many goals to accomplish with my horse. The beginning of this year my trainer and I were going to sell my horse and find a more competitive horse to show at aqha level. At first I was heart broken and I still am so I never really put him up for sale. (more of a lease) I than figured out that if I did show at aqha breed show level that I didn't want to accomplish my new goals with the same trainer because I felt as if her heart was more into the money than seeing her students succeed. So I began to look around for barns near by. I found one. The board was $75 more, which isn't too bad...Than I started to miss my Arabian mare. My first horse was an Arabian. Her death was something not one little girl should remember. So, I began looking at Arabians for sale and shows and boarding. Not one near where I lived. There was a few a hour and half away, which is pretty far to have a horse! And then today, while looking at friends and their horse show pictures. I wondered what am i going to benefit out of these horse shows? My friends that are going to these horse shows are going to become trainers. Not me...I'm going to be a dental hygienist. All you get from a show is a ribbon..right? You spend a ton of money just to receive a ribbon. Now for someone who may be a trainer or somewhere in the horse world may show to show off their experience in showing. I loved horses since I was one years old. I've had a horse since I was 11 years old. I don't know what I would do without a horse. And with a horse I don't know what to do without showing. No goals is something that I've never had before.
Let me hear what you guys think? My boyfriend just thinks its a phase I am in because I had one year off from showing. So he just tells me the same thing over again.. "next week you'll be looking for a horse" or "you always have a new plan, just sleep on it" It's like I am running in circles!! It's driving me nuts.
So, What are the benefits to showing (breed shows)? Do you get prize money at breed shows? (AHA, AQHA; I live in wisconsin if that makes a difference.)
I mean if I didn't show at all and just have a horse to trail ride with I would feel like I am wasting my money because I am not riding/seeing him/ her everyday because when you have a show horse you are seeing/riding him/her everyday to get ready for a show. And I am the biggest money saver!
And also, my boyfriend and I are thinking about our future. We want to get married in a few years. We also talked about how many kids we want (3) and estimated that if we still have horses there is a possibility that all 3 kids are going to want horses of their own. And we talked about a private barn for ourselves... how expensive can it get? you know?.. but could I really live without horses. I don't know. And I have a strong feeling that I don't want to try to.
Help this poor lady out Please don't bash I know I sound like a spoiled brat, but I don't mean to sound that way. I'm confused! Also, I want to point out that I am selling my horse because we just don't get along anymore. I think my trainer pushed him too far to the point he just wants to be a horse and not be bothered. I feel that part of that is my fault because I could have stopped it. A friend of mine told me to not blame myself because some trainers brain wash you, which I don't know if its true. So, I don't find it fun to go to the barn to a cranky horse, but I do still enjoy riding.
Okay, This time i am done. Sorry for the long emotional story! Thanks for the help guys!